“But as soon as they were at rest, they again did what was evil in your sight.” Nehemiah 9:28a

I’ve been thinking about how when my life is fairly comfortable, I’m not prone to cling to Him.  I start to live under this illusion that I’ve got things under control.  And faster than fast I slide into self-absorption.

I don’t want Him to have to make my life uncomfortable so I’ll live from His strength and not my own.  I guess that’s where discipline comes in.  The daily-ness of walking with Him and not just in trials.  I’ve always known that.  But you can know a lot of things.

I need Him in rest.  I need Him in trials.  I need Him in work.  I need Him at play.  I need Him when I’m getting along great with Dan.  I need Him when I’m failing to serve Dan above myself.  I need Him when I’m hanging in there as a mom.  I need Him when I’m overwhelmed by the task.  I need Him when I feel close and connected and in a mutually-serving relationship with my friends.  I need Him when I feel far away from them and can only think about what they can do for me.

I just read that Nehemiah verse today and was reminded of my need.  All the time.  Let’s cling to Him.